I'm still me. Promise.

Nakalimot ka na 'ata,
I couldn't believe when I heard this. I couldn't accept that it was being said to me, And I couldn't forgive myelf if I did.
When college came to my life, I swear-I became too busy. I became so into my studies but that doesn't mean I changed or I have forgotten my Solid 6, because THAT WOULD NEVER HAPPEN.

Solid 6, for almost four years now is one of the reasons I keep going and believing that I can be the best I can be. They're my best buddies, my partners in crime and my inspiration. I'll admit that since college attacked my life,we barely see each other. BUT, that wouldn't change anything.

A couple of nights ago,my Bessie, Phine and I are texting. And their comments that it seems I'm too busy, got new friends na and that nakalimot ka ata made it sooo clear to me that something is not so fine with us. and of course, I was alarmed and I realized that yeah, I have been pretty busy with school and another yes, I met some people that apparently became my companions but no, I never did forget my solid 6.

I'll repeat it. I.NEVER.WILL.FORGET.THEM. erasing solid 6(bonding,memories, friendship and all) from my mind is like taking my lungs and heart from my body. When that happens, imagine the picture: ME-dead.

Guys, I love you. I know you know that. I care for you and i hpo you'll always remember that. I owe all of you my life. For if it weren't for you, I swear, I wouldn't be the person I am today. You are like, tattooed onmy life and ther's no turning back on the promisewe made that we'll stay FOREVER.

Yep, college may all be killing us big time, new friends may come and distance may keep us apart but this i vow to you: I'm still me.

I may be a little independent and tougher now, may be more into writing and writing, may be wearing chandelier earrings now- for God's sake! but I'm still the old JEN. The girl who is iyakin, obssesed with cleanliness and neat-stuffs, the girl who siongs badly and most importantly, the same girl who loved you all.

SOLID 6, I love you.. very much.

"I'm tough." yeah, right.

Oh dear, Please stop.

I don't like this. I don't like it when insane thoughts are haunting my mind.
And I hate it when I know that something's wrong but I'll keep it all to myself.

Like today, I came home from a happy event and most likely, I should be happy, right?
Yeah,I'm glad but part of me is troubled. As I slumped myself on my bed, I tried so hard to erase those ugly thoughts but they simply won'y go away.And my stubborness is making things worst. Yes, it's been a "hobby" of mine. I'm really not into sharing my problems with people for the sole reson that I don't want them to worry about me.
Call me selfish. But, I like it that way.

When some things are wrong, I want to fix them myself.
I want to solve them on my own.
And ONLY when I couldn't take it anymore, that's the only time
I'll say: "okay, I need help."

Yes.I know. It shouldn't be this way and I shouldn't be like this.
Pretend that I'm a tough girl all the time.
Fake myself as someone too,too strong always.
I guess, I should learn how to give up and ask help sometimes.
Anyway, this day wouldn't be better if it weren't for *god of sound, for patiently asking me " What's wrong?, C'mon tell." and for texting me and telling me that nothing's wrong thank you, my friend! To *Laarni, my friendship with you proved that distance won't change anything. It won't stop us from being friends. Thanks for talking to me.. made the pain go away..Thanks for convincing me that yeah, everything's okay, love you, always. And to the person who came up with the idea of Globe unlimited texting for just a few bucks, I salute him. It was such an amazing idea. I swear,

Good Lord, thanks for being with me. All the time.

Happy Birthday, Reyka!!

It’s just another day, but this one’s the best of the year...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, to one of my best buddies, UP introduced to me.

I can still remember the day we met, sa CAL, I was with Anna that time. One look at you, Masungit, I thought. The next day, I saw you again- we were classmates on the last Tuesday/Friday subject. After a couple of Uy, Hi! and Hello’s!, we were inseparable.

The three of us (together with Anna ) have been through a lot. From the hard-to-understand- Math class plus the twice hard-to-understand professor, never ending after- classes bonding and huddling over for some kwentuhan’s, the isaw and ice cream feasting after the trip from the not-so far AIT to the fun, fun, fun moments we continue to have. I thanked God for He let me share these things to you and I am so much grateful to him for doing a great job of putting you in my life’s storybook.

Yes, our friendship is too young. Some might even say that it’s too early to label this thing as friendship but, who cares? With the warm acceptance and the wonderful gift of friendship you’ve given me, I could almost fake it and say,Reyka and I? We’ve been friends for uhm, like a decade?

Let us vow NOT.NEVER to stop from being friends.

Happy Birthday again..
Here’s to more wonderful moments together and friendship forever

I Love You.. Too Too Much