"I'm tough." yeah, right.

Oh dear, Please stop.

I don't like this. I don't like it when insane thoughts are haunting my mind.
And I hate it when I know that something's wrong but I'll keep it all to myself.

Like today, I came home from a happy event and most likely, I should be happy, right?
Yeah,I'm glad but part of me is troubled. As I slumped myself on my bed, I tried so hard to erase those ugly thoughts but they simply won'y go away.And my stubborness is making things worst. Yes, it's been a "hobby" of mine. I'm really not into sharing my problems with people for the sole reson that I don't want them to worry about me.
Call me selfish. But, I like it that way.

When some things are wrong, I want to fix them myself.
I want to solve them on my own.
And ONLY when I couldn't take it anymore, that's the only time
I'll say: "okay, I need help."

Yes.I know. It shouldn't be this way and I shouldn't be like this.
Pretend that I'm a tough girl all the time.
Fake myself as someone too,too strong always.
I guess, I should learn how to give up and ask help sometimes.
Anyway, this day wouldn't be better if it weren't for *god of sound, for patiently asking me " What's wrong?, C'mon tell." and for texting me and telling me that nothing's wrong thank you, my friend! To *Laarni, my friendship with you proved that distance won't change anything. It won't stop us from being friends. Thanks for talking to me.. made the pain go away..Thanks for convincing me that yeah, everything's okay, love you, always. And to the person who came up with the idea of Globe unlimited texting for just a few bucks, I salute him. It was such an amazing idea. I swear,

Good Lord, thanks for being with me. All the time.