Of Love and Changes

They say it's the Grandest thing...
February 01

I was sprawled on the floor at 7 pm and is having a one-on-one meeting with my Kas1 readings when across me, Ate Cats suddenly turned her CD player on, picked a suspiciously-looking CD then shrugged.
I was on the verge of memorizing the Philippine map when the song playing caught my attention.

BOTH SIDES NOW
Joni Mitchell

Rows and floes of angel hair
And ice cream castles in the air
And feather canyons ev’rywhere
I’ve looked at clouds that way

But now they only block the sun
They rain and snow on ev’ryone
So many things I would have done
But clouds got in my way
I’ve looked at clouds from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
It’s cloud illusions I recall
I really don’t know clouds at all

Moons and junes and ferris wheels
The dizzy dancing way you feel
As ev’ry fairy tale comes real
I’ve looked at love that way

But now it’s just another show
You leave ’em laughing when you go
And if you care, don’t let them know
Don’t give yourself away

I’ve looked at love from both sides now
From give and take, and still somehow
It’s love’s illusions I recall
I really don’t know love at all

Tears and fears and feeling proud
To say I love you right out loud
Dreams and schemes and circus crowds
I’ve looked at life that way

But now old friends are acting strange
They shake their heads, they say I’ve changed
Well something’s lost, but something’s gained
In living ev’ry day

I’ve looked at life from both sides now
From win and lose and still somehow
It’s life’s illusions I recall
I really don’t know life at all
I’ve looked at life from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
It’s life’s illusions I recall
I really don’t know life at all

It was from the film "Love Actually" played when Emma Thompson was controlling herself from hysterically crying after she found out that the necklace her husband bought isn't for her. That's one of my favorite parts. Not all wives are like that.
Not showing the bitterness they feel so their kids won't worry for them.

The song, obviously is a song of heartbreak. A song of a person who first thought that love is the coolest feeling in this world. True. But not at all times.
One should be looking at both sides of it.
Its give's and takes's, its pain and pleasure.
After all, nobody wants to wound up getting hurt.

January 30
No more Mr. funny guy

At 10:30 am, I found myself doodling on my ultra big scratch paper(courtesy of Ate Mara) on Nat Sci 2 class. ON CLASS!-while the professor is actually talking about ribosomesoriginoflifechemthingwharver. I was alarmed. I mean , I don't do that in class. Yeah, call me nerdy. Call me a geek.

You see, we are supposed to have two professors in this class. One for Geology, one for Biology. The first half of the sem goes to Sir David, the ultra cool-uber-funny-
guy who never fails to crack some corny jokes that send all of his students rolling on the floor. And today, unfortunately, we have to end Geology and head right away to Bio.

The new professor is fine. She looked really sleek and professional. Mga nasa early 40's siguro. But unlike Sir David, the new professor seems really serious. Nothing bad about it kaya lang, parang my classmates and I are so used to having a fun and carefree teacher that today, We're sorry but I guess we can't help it, 3/4 of the class have already gone to Slumber Land. If not, some of us are whispering to each other, daydeaming, reviewing for the next subject or doodling.

I guess, the "oh-so-jolly" times are gone. I think I should deal with this na lang.
Tsaka, malay natin, after a couple of meetings, our new prof would loosen up a bit.

(Sigh...)