Dahil ayaw pang i-post ang mga "personal" entries, eto muna

So okay, I found another excuse so I can't post my "personal" entries but hold on guys, because I'm still gonna post them.

*Random Things

three names you go by:
1. Jeniprox
2. Mats
3. Sandra
three screen names you have had:
1. godchild
2. the writer
3. oreo eyes on the block.
three physical things you like about yourself:
1. My eyes
2. my shoulders
3. height. yeah, that!
three physical things you don't like about yourself:
1. My lips
2. My lower limbs--medyo 'di proportioned sa arms ko.
3. My feet- sort of.
three parts of your heritage:
1. Filipino
2. Caviteño/Pampangeño
3. And what?
three things that scare you:
1. Worms
2. Sadako and creatures that resemble her.
3. Losing a loved one
three of your everyday essentials:
1. Cellphone
2. A trusty pen
3. Hanky- nahawa na kay Ate Vi.
three of your favorite musical artists as of now:
1. Jason Mraz
2. Cynthia Alexander
3. Forever Celine Dion.
three of your favorite songs:
1. All the Love in the World- The Corrs
2. Suntok sa Buwan- Session Road
3. You and I Both- Jason Mraz
three things you want in a relationship:
1. trust- yep, lots of this.
2. space and some time to be alone
3. lots of laughter
three physical things about the opposite sex that appeals to you:
1. tall
2. the kind of smile that will leave you stunned
3. artistic dapat.
three of your favorite hobbies:
1. writing
2. room cleaning
3. going to malls and bookstores-- bookworm eh.
three things you want to do really badly now:
1. laugh until tears come running from my eyes
2. attend some writing workshops.
3. talk to Mom. And get things done. And hug her really tight.
three careers you're considering/you've considered:
1. To write on some decent magazine or broadsheet
2. Work in media. Yeah!
3. Uhm, maging chef sana.
three places you want to go on vacation:
1. Palawan or Boracay.
2. Europa, sa buong Europa!!
3. States- yuji, my baby brother, sama ka ha?
three kid's names you like:
1. Daphne
2. Clarisse, Chin, Aki, Yuji
3. Rafael
three things you want to do before you die:
1. Publish a book. Okay, books
2. Do/produce a documentary. Ala Cheche Lazaro.
3. Be complete. Ala Centrum? haha.
three ways that you are stereotypically a boy:
1. I move so fast.
2. I don't say I'm mad when I am
3. I'm pretty up for anything most of the time
three ways that you are stereotypically a girl:
1. I like getting dressed and putting on some make up
2. I blush when somebody compliments me
3. I can't live the house without actally looking fully-human
three celebrity crushes:
1. Richard Gutierrez
2. Brad Pitt
3. Richard Gere

What's up with me lately?

These past few days (after her great arrival), I have to admit that my absolutely weird moods are torturing me that for five straight days, I have been crying on and off, been sporting that "blank look" and been eating so little, I lost 8 pounds.

I was really in a state of confusion for the past week that I forgot that I have a blog to maintain.
Today, thanks be to God ( and my friends- Bessie and cool gang,) I'm feeling better.

sana 'di na ko dalawin ng mga kung anu-anong pag-iisip.

So, I'm back here at the blog world. Yey!!

Holy Week ( April 10-17)

As usual, The same Holy Week-routine happened. The same Holy week stuff were done by the entire Aquino family (the one residing in Bulacan).

*HolyMonday-We had preparations done for the annual "pabasa".
*HolyTuesday- Wednesday- The Pabasa. We had lots of visitors. Mostly my relatives and my grandma's friends. As usual, I was in-charge of my cousins. I was their babysitter fot two whole days. Yes.
*Maundy Thursday-My Mom, Grandmother and the kids and I went to the evening mass.
*Good Friday-Confession and Station of the across. Naaalala ko pa 'yung advice ni Mons: Sabi niya " The Lord has sacrificed because He love us and He never got tired of it. Dapat ikaw din huwag magsawa kahit matagal ka nang nagsa-sacrifice" . I missed the procession. Ask my Mom why.
*Black Saturday-I just stayed at home.
*Easter Sunday- The Lord wanted me to be strong. I knew it. And I will be. There was one mushy but sincere letter given.

*Things I learned this Holy Week:
1. It's not wrong to feel bitter sometimes. It's okay to cry sometimes.
2. I'm can get really selosa sometimes.
3."Sorry" is the hardest word. But sometimes you have to say it beacuse you love someone.

Don't blame me if I act strange sometimes.
Don't blame me if I missed you in my life.

Yes or No.

Was blog hopping and luckily found this.
And since I don't want to be occupied with hideous thoughts today,
pinirata ko na ito.

1. You can only say YES or NO.
2. You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages you / comments and asks!

1. Taken a picture naked? No
2. Painted your room? No
3. Made out with a member of the same sex? No
4. Drove a car? No
5. Danced in front of your mirror? Yes
6. Have a crush? Yes
7. Been dumped? No
8. Stole money from friend? No
9. Gotten in a car with people you just met? No
10. Been in a fist fight? Yes
11. Snuck out of your house? Yes
12. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? Yes
13. Been arrested? No
14. Made out with a stranger? No
15. Met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere? Yes
16. Left your house with out telling your parents? Yes
17. Had a crush on your neighbor? No
18. Ditched school to do something more fun? No
19. Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex? Yes
20. Seen someone die? No
21. Fake a phone call? Yes
22. Kissed a picture? Yes
23. Slept in until 3PM? Yes
24. Love someone or miss someone right now? Yes
25. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? Yes
26. Made a snow angel? No
27. Played dress up? Yes
28. Cheated while playing a game? Yes
29. Been lonely? Yes
30. Fallen asleep at work/school? No
31. Been to a club? Yes
32. Felt an earthquake? Yes
33. Touched a snake? Yes
34. Ran a red light? No
35. Been suspended from school? No
36. Had detention? No
37. Been in a car accident? Yes
38. Hated the way you look? Yes
39. Witnessed a crime? Yes
40. Pole danced? Yes
41. Been lost? Yes
42. Cried for more than five hours? Yes
43. Felt like dying? Yes
44. Cried yourself to sleep? Yes
46. Sang karaoke? Yes
47. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? Yes
48. Laughed till some kind of beverage came out of your nose? Yes
49. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? No
50. Kissed in the rain? No
51. Sing in the shower? Yes
52. Made love in a park? No
53. Had a dream that you married someone? Yes
54. Glued your hand to something? Yes
55. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? No
56. Ever gone to school partially naked? No
57. Been a cheerleader? Yes
58. Sat on a roof top? Yes
59. Didn't take a shower for a week? No
60. Ever too scared to watch scary movies alone? Yes
61. Played chicken? Yes
62. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? Yes
63. Been told you're hot by a complete stranger? Yes
64. Broken a bone? Yes
65. Been easily amused? Yes
66. Laugh so hard you cry? Yes
67. Mooned/flashed someone? No
68. Cheated on a test? Yes
69. Forgotten someone's name? Yes
70. Slept naked? No
71. Gone skinny dipping in a pool? No
73. Blacked out from drinking? No
74. Played a prank on someone? Yes
75. Gone to a late night movie? No
76. Made love to anything not human? No
77. Failed a class? No
78. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat? Yes
79. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours? No
80. Cheated on a girl/boyfriend? No
81. Did you celebrate the 4th of July? No
82. Thrown strange objects? Yes
83. Felt like killing someone? Yes
84. Thought about running away? Yes
85. Ran away? No
86. Did drugs? No
87. Had detention and not attend it? No
89. Made a parent cry? Yes
90. Cried over someone? Yes
91. Owned more than 5 sharpies? No
92. Dated someone more than once? No
93. Have a dog? Yes
94. Own an instrument? Yes
95. Been in a band? No
96. Drank 25 sodas in a day? No
97. Broken a cd? Yes
98. Shot a gun? No

That was FUN.

Tagalog. Bakit hindi?

April o5
*kayraming nakakagulat na pangyayari:
-aba. akalain mong mataas ang grado ko sa MP10. Ngayon, puede na kong bumalik sa titser ko noong hayskul na nagsabi sa akin:
"Ano ba ito? Terible ang sulat mo, hija."
-May sinundo sa airport. May isang batang hindi sigurado kung natuwa o nagulat. Mukhang pareho.

April 06
-Nagsimula na. Nagsimula na akong talunin ng aking mga pag-iisip.
-"I was never asking for something too much. And yet, you can't even give the simple things you knew I needed"

April 07
-Happy Birthday, Jilian. Miss na kita, babaeng pasaway!
-Mahirap pala ang walang makausap at masabihan ng problema. Nasa'n ang Solid 6? Cool gang?

April 08
-Salamat Bessie, Reyka at Maia. Salamat sa pakikinig. Salamat at nandyan kayo.

April 09
-Nakakapagod ang Walk of Faith na iyon. 16 kilometers ba naman.

April 1st.

This day is April Fool's Day but I promise, my blog entry for today is not a joke.

At around 2 pm, I have nothing to do. I was actually alone in the house. No T.V programs to watch, no cousins to babysit for and no darn thing to do. So, instead of doing nothing at all but stare at the ceiling, I went to my room and looked around.

My eyes settled on my Pandora's box.

Yeah, I kept one. And perhaps, only those who really close to me knew about that. In case you're wondering why of all names, I chose Pandora-it has something to do with mythology. Pandora's box was opened a long,long time ago and it released all sorts of things to the world: grief, happiness, knowledge, hatred, angst and hope. My own box is quite like that. There I kept old letters, wrappers, cards and even dried roses. Proofs that in my life, I love and was loved, I cried, I was teasured and valued by people, I made mistakes.. Strange for some. But this strangeness makes me feel good.

I started looking for letters that I acquired since Grade 3 and upon rummaging through satcks of cards and letters, I found three letters that made me realized that surely, things have gone a long way and ended up changing.

*a photograph of me in my elementary uniform- I had really short hair and unforgivable crooked teeth. thanks to my hair dresser and orthodontist, I looked like a real girl now.

*wallet size photo of Dennis(from Ghostfighter) with a message at the back- Given by the boy I thought I love. The boy I was first attracted to in elementary. The boy I'd like to be my husband. Yep, puppy love. A very silly puppy love.

*a Christmas letter from Merlina, my ex-best friend, six years ago - Reading it again, it felt funny to know how Merlina and I used to be so crazy for each other years ago. We are like sisters. We are so close that we even call each other "Fers" and "Mers." We are so happy together until we entered high scool. We fell apart and stopped talking. Now, we are neighbors but still, we are never really seeing each other.

I couldn't help but sigh. Things are really different now. Before, I'll admit, I'm happy-go-lucky. Superficial. But when high school entered my life, like a scene from a teleserye, all was changed. Suddenly, I'm the new JEN.

And I love it. The new me.